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|Saturday, June 5th, 2010|
Looks like I'll be moving my sporadic blogging to Facebook. Just about everyone on the planet is using it. In just a two days I got in touch with 15 friends and family that I haven't heard from in a while without even trying. I like Livejournal better but most people I know have ghosted away from it. I'll still check back here every one in a while though.
And that damn Cafe World is so addicting....
|Monday, April 12th, 2010|
|I Love My e-Reader.
Don't get me wrong, I love my paper books even more, but e-books are just too damn convenient. My library had begun to number in the thousands over the past few years and it got to the point where I had to start throwing out older books in order to make room for new ones. Every time I had to move the living room or kitchen around due to a new addition (TV, new computer desk, etc) I spent most of my time dealing with my library. A real pain in the arse.
I picked up a Sony e-Reader and now my entire library weighs 7.5 ounces and fits in my purse. You can't beat that kind of convenience. The e-ink screen is pretty easy on the eyes and looks just like paper. I'm currently in the process of finding good homes for all my old paper books and freeing up tons of space in my apartment by getting rid of numerous book cases.
|Tuesday, April 6th, 2010|
|Ha ha ha ha..
Wow, I haven't laughed that hard in years. I've been following the Constance mess and those country bumpkins just make me smile. Yes, I know, it is a serious issue and what they've been doing is horrid, shameful, and embarrassing to the human race.
But these people are so friking stupid and backwards it's literally comedy. A lesbian wants to go to the prom with her girlfriend, so they cancel the prom. She goes to the ACLU and court and its ruled that her rights have been violated by the school. Naturally most of the student body blames the girl who is in the legal right rather than the people who canceled their prom.
After this the entire nation starts watching their little podunk town and reporters, ACLU lawyers, and e-bloggers are swarming everywhere. Even the cows have cameras up their asses.
Their bright thought, lets throw a secret prom and not invite the lesbian (and the mentally handicapped students and the evil lesbian's friends), no one will find out!!! We'll throw them off with a fake prom just for the rejects!
Naturally the students who attended the secret prom posted hundred of pics on their public blogs. My favorites were the girls making out, the stip-tease acts, and the dirty dancing pics. Did I mention most of their parents were there, some of whom took the pictures? Did I mention all these people claim to be good upstanding Christians?
So a few of the parents find out about the public blogs that are now being copied and sent around the world and respond by posting on said blogs "this wasn't a prom' and 'take these pictures down now!', etc.
It's like one of those bad 80s college humor movies where the entire town is filled with idiots.
Constance for now has decided to stick it out in that hell hole and fight for a better world despite being offered scholarships in NY, California, etc. I wish her the best of luck in her fight for equality and justice. I know she'll have the support she needs for the long road ahead (the ACLU is having a field day).
On a side note, Constance's podunk town just a few years a go permanently suspended a student for being transgendered on her first day of school. The town then ran her out of town, but luckily she ended up in a better environment in Florida.
Oh, the podunk town is Fulton, Mississippi in case you want to make fun of it or play Benny Hill music.
|Tuesday, March 9th, 2010|
Amazing graphics? Check.
Amazing music? Check.
Amazing world? Pretty original and fleshed out.
Interesting characters? They pretty much just copied from previous FF games (you got your Cloud, Riku, Waka, etc.). The only two original characters are the token stereo-typed black guy (and apparently the only one in the entire universe) and Mister "I'm a hero!".
Great story? Pong has a better plot.
Amazing battle system? Mashing 'A' and occasionally changing job roles for a few seconds will win EVERY fight, including boss fights. You'll never need to use the 3 usable combat items. Yup, 3.
Amazing Summons? Pretty, but not worth the time. My weakest character does more damage than my strongest summon.
Exploration? None. You run down a single non-branching tunnel in connected dungeons most of the game.
Lots of quests? None so far. Just running down a tunnel. I hear there's maybe six or so near the end of the game.
Lots of items to collect? Shops are worthless, you never need/want to use them. Drops from battles have pretty names but they only do one thing, get converted into xp for leveling equipment. But that's okay, money is virtually non-existent anyways. There's about 2000 gil on disk 1 if you open every chest. That's enough to buy maybe 1 item.
Lots of equipment choices? You get two pieces of equipment, a weapon and a ring. They level up. There are only a few weapons in the entire game for each character.
Amazing character customization? At first it seems so, but after a while you realize what a joke it is. You only get new options when enough time has passed for you to completely fill up the old ones. Your customization is always exactly where they want it to be.
What a disappointment. FF XIII can barely be considered an RPG. This game is a perfect example of modern game developers putting virtually all of their effort into graphics and music and none into actual game play. FF I was incredibly complex compared to XIII. RPG fans have been screaming for years that we've wanted a FF like 7 for years and they give us this piece of dog poop, the worst FF yet.
|Monday, March 1st, 2010|
This is undoubtedly the biggest F*up in console history.
If you haven't turned on your phat PS3 in the last few days you may not know what I'm talking about. You can no longer log into PSN. You can no longer play games with trophy support (ex: MW2). You can no longer play any game that uses the internal clock for any reason (ex: Heavy Rain). You can no longer play games that you have DLC for. Almost any game you downloaded from the PSN is now a demo or unplayable. You'll find many of your themes corrupted. If you try to save a game that you can still play there's a good chance you'll corrupt your save files. Check your date, you'll find that its gone back ten years or so. I could go on and on. It's effecting every phat PS3 including those that have never been online and debug and developer models.
Sony is claiming this is due to a PSN error and that they're working on it. It's not a PSN error. I hope to god they're playing dumb due to PR reasons, otherwise most of the engineering staff needs fired.
It's a hardware error. The ARM CPU has a bug in it where it thinks this year is a leap year. The ARM CPU is going to Feb 29 while all the other CPUs with clocks are going to Mar 1. Normally this wouldn't cause a huge problem as the ARM doesn't do anything important. It turns on lights, handles the on/off and eject switches, sleep mode, and other simple stuff like that. It would just mess up your internal clock and some games that use it.
Now for the good stuff. Sony's insane "uncrackable" security. As soon as the ARM CPU's timing went off from the rest of the unit Sony's anti-piracy measures went off. To make a long story short, your phat PS3 thinks its security has been breached and it's locking down on all kinds of stuff. Like games with DLC, Connecting to the PSN, playing downloaded games, trophy support, and anything else evil pirates might try to mess with. Yup, the PS3 won't even turn on a blinky light without a security check.
Sony MIGHT be able to release a firmware patch but a lot of the security that's going bonkers is hardwired into the units. This will be one doozey of a patch as it will have to rewrite a lot of security code and may take a while to be released. But who knows, with tens of millions of screaming customers they may have it out later today (they stopped taking calls btw).
If you can't wait for the update (which may not even come out), there's a "simple" fix. On Mar 2 or later take your PS3 apart. Look for a little black box with a sticker on it somewhere behind your usb ports with a red and black wire going into it. That's the ARM CPU's battery. Unplug it. Wait 15 minutes. Plug it back in. Reassemble PS3. Play and enjoy. You won't have any further issues like this until possibly the next even numbered non-leap year.
Okay, the problem has seemed to have fixed itself as the ARM CPU goes from Feb 29th to March 2nd all on its own, thus resyncing the clocks and ending the security lock-up. Damn, could have made me a lot of money. lol
Oh, and the PSN got hacked this weekend as well. lol
|Friday, February 5th, 2010|
|o.O It's been one year since my poor gallbladder went to heaven..... that f*cker.
I've been doing pretty darn well since Christmas, thank the gods. I don't know what happened but my health has improved pretty darn quickly and I've been eating normal food since the beginning of the year. You have no idea how wonderful fat tastes after a year without it. I've been gaining weight and feeling pretty normal (aka, no more f*ing pain and misery all the time). My energy levels are still on the low end but they've been picking up.
Since I was budgeting for not working anymore (due to getting sicker) or getting laid off (because of missing too many days and being gimpy) I've had a bit of extra money to spend. 80% of the plant has been laid off and for some odd reason they've kept me despite being gimpy and pissing off the plant manager. Everything I'm earning now is extra.
I've also been earning a buttload of cash for computer and console work on the side. I can pimp out all your gadgets on the cheap. ;) I started this up figuring I'd need an income source for when I couldn't work anymore. Well, I've gotten better, I still have a job, and people are really liking my work and spreading the word. Sometimes I pull down a hundred in cash a single night. I've been fixing and/or upgrading laptops and computers. I can do most of the hardware work myself if something's physically broken. I had a lot of time to learn this stuff being gimpy and stuck in the apartment all the time. I've also gotten pretty good at hacking consoles.
Thus a lot of new toys to play with lately. There's nothing better than raiding Icecrown Citadel on a 60 inch screen. :) Okay, maybe sleeping in my new King size bed. :P I know I'm getting a little carried away with the materialism, but I've spent most of my life in a 10x11 room in one crappy run-down house after another with nothing to my name. I can save the retrospection for when I'm dying again. lol
I've been in the mood for an anime con lately, it's been a while since I've been to one...
|Wednesday, February 3rd, 2010|
|Friday, December 18th, 2009|
|Ho Ho ho ho ho ho oooo...
I decided I was going to be a bit more seasonal for Christmas since I was a big scrooge for Thanksgiving. Social, active, happy, etc.
Then last week our hot water tank exploded and flooded the apartment with scalding water. A lot of our stuff, especially the electronics, was completely ruined or destroyed. We cleaned up and got the hot water tank fixed. It blew up again the next day while we were at work. It was spewing out more scalding hot water until we got home. We both got burned opening up our front door. It nearly killed our cats, they were hiding under our bed behind some old blankets.
We just got a working hot water tank yesterday. Last night was the first night I'd had a hot bath in two weeks.
Did I mention we don't have insurance? We're still cleaning up and the place smells horrible.
Then Saturday Shawn's mom breaks her leg in several places. She went in for surgery and it was worse then they thought when they cut her open. She now has about 5 pounds of metal in her leg but the hospital won't release her due to complications. She could lose the leg. Or worse. Shawn has taken FMLA leave to be with her, which has left me footing most of the bills. There won't be any Christmas cash this year.
Our Christmas tree was one of the few things that survived the big boiling. A bright point if you will. Our cats, having lost most of their play toys, decided to take a go at the tree. And knocked it over and into the heater. Luckily I had bought a flame retardant tree so it just turned into a pile of green and black crispy goo instead of burning down whats left of our possessions.
Yet still I tried to keep a jolly mind set. So I put in for vacation for next week so I could help take care of Shawn's mom when/if she gets home. She got pissed off about that and cursed Shawn out. She doesn't want me taking care of her.
And here I thought the holidays couldn't ever possibly get worse than me spending Christmas Eve in the ER last year.
Happy Holidays Everyone!
Ho ho ho!
|Wednesday, November 25th, 2009|
I'm gonna go all Scrooge this year and I feel kind of bad about it, but I just don't have the energy for the holidays. My family lives hours away and I have neither a car nor a license (did I mention that I'm no longer legally allowed to drive?). Shawn also has to make a four hour round trip (in the opposite direction) on most holidays to pick up his son or drop him off.
And let's not forget holidays are all about food. Turkey, ham, pies, stuffing, mashed potatoes, etc., etc. And I can't eat a damn bit of it without getting violently ill. I'd have to bring my own food everywhere I went because the concept of fat free holiday dishes just doesn't exist in most people's minds. Sure, I could OD on cranberry jelly. Maybe eat the stuffing and mashed potatoes if someone is willing to make them with no butter or fat filled ingredients. But that's about it. I'd have to sit there and watch everyone divulge in the gluttony that now appears to be forever forbidden to me. Yes, I'm bitter. :P I think most people would be. As much as I try to get over it I just can't.
I can't even get happy over my new figure. Everyone's always telling me how great I look now but I can only respond with crap like "That's because I'm dieing."
Bitter, bitter, bitter. I don't want this bitterness ruling my life. I want happiness to rule it. I am happy in some areas of my life. Shawn has taught me I'm worth loving and he reminds me of that every single night, even if he doesn't realize it. I have friends that care about me. My cats are a bright spot in my life as well.
And let's not forget about one of the world's most impressive collections of pirated gaming warez. :P
Eminizer Scrooge! You will be visited by three ghosts this very night!
|Saturday, November 14th, 2009|
|News of my death has been mildly exagerated. :P
I've been feeling a lot better lately but I still spend most of my free time sleeping. The weight loss has also stopped but I'm still shrinking. :P Apparently my body is still losing fat but it's now beginning to rebuild muscle and organ tissue at a pretty decent rate. I'm starting to lose that gaunt "I'm dieing" look. I still can't eat anything yummy or bad for me but my tolerance for spicier foods seems to be growing. Good news overall but I still have a ways to go.
Goodwill is my new best friend. You can't beat $1 jeans when you have to change dress sizes every month or two.
I'll probably skip Thanksgiving with the family this year. I won't be able to eat anything and I no longer have a car. Shawn's family never did holidays to begin with so we'll probably sleep in then.
|Saturday, August 29th, 2009|
|Meh. Still Alive.
My upbeat mood couldn't last forever. :P I'm still shrinking and it's getting so hard to do anything. Doing the dishes feels like I've worked a hard twelve hour shift. I sleep most of the day now. I don't even have the energy for reading or watching a movie. There hasn't been much improvement in my health and the list of foods I can eat without getting sick is dwindling. My hope that I'll get better is vanishing. I'm so tired I don't even have the energy to be really upset or angry at this whole situation.
The Nintendo DS sucks by the way. I picked up one with an r4 cart and let me tell you I haven't been able to find a single decent game on the system yet. Cooking Mama and Sonic Rush are almost tolerable though.
My PSP (Pimp Station Portable) is getting a lot of use these days now that I spend a lot of my time in bed. I put in dual memory stick, dual analog, custom firmware, and extended battery mods. I can play that sucker for 48 hours without a recharge as long as I'm using headphones. With two PhotoFast CR-5400s with two 32gb SDHCs in each I have a whopping 128Gs of gaming awsomeness. I've got about 150 games, a dozen emus with all the roms, a couple of seasons of Southpark and the Lord of the Rings movies trilogy on it. Dissidia has been eating up a lot of my time these last few weeks (it pays to be a pirate). It's over-hyped but still a lot of fun.
|Sunday, July 26th, 2009|
Lately I've really been taking a look and my life and seriously re-evaluating things. There's been so much I've taken advantage of. In other areas there's been serious neglect. Things of great importance in my life when under scrutiny turn out to be quite worthless. The reverse is true as well.
All the shit that's happened to me has really got me thinking. My physical youth is pretty much over but it took the grim face of illness and death to get me out of my mental youth. Odds are I'll live to be a little old lady, but the emotional toll taken this year makes it feel not so. I'm having to learn to live with hardships that seem so simple yet weigh so much.
And I'm becoming a better person because of it. My spirits are picking up a bit despite the situation not improving. I sat myself down and had a nice long talk with myself. I need to truly discover the things that bring joy to my life. The funny thing is, what I often thought brought me joy really didn't.
It's kind of strange, having gone through such life altering changes in the last decade, that it's now that I'm finally starting to figure out what I'm about. What I need and want in life. I always thought knowing who I was was enough, but it wasn't. It was only the first step.
I suppose subconsciously this is why I started this journal again. To reach out and try to re-establish old bonds and possibly make some new ones. The ball started rolling after I got sick without me noticing it. Sharing myself and others they sharing themselves with me is what I need. Simple, honest, friendship and love. I've had plenty of friends over the years, but few of true depth. Those rare few that let me in I found various ways of eventually chasing off or avoiding. I was afraid of intimate emotional connections despite my deep longing for them.
I could write a novel in my current mood, but as I'm getting up early tomorrow morning to go to Dave & Busters I should probably get some sleep.
|Thursday, July 9th, 2009|
|Back to work and more bad news...
I started work again this week so the money will finally be flowing in again. Too bad my doctor told me to stop working.
Monday morning I found out my upper internal organs are riddled with scar tissue. The inflamation I had earlier in the year did a hell of a lot more damage than they had anticipated. My body is having a really hard time dealing with this and its really dragging out my recovery. Basically my body is torn between falling apart and recovering. They also think my pancreas is shutting down every once in a while, but I need to see a specialist I can't afford to confirm that. This is why my health has been such an up and down affair since my surgery.
I was told that I needed to avoid physical and emotional stress at all costs. My body can't afford it. Too much stress and things will stop working right or working at all. Multiple organ failure is a posibilty in a worse case scenario. I have to take it easy in the hopes that I'll recover.
So I'm kind of at a rough decision point. I can't afford not to be working. I have no savings left, little of value to sell, and really no one to turn to to lean on financially. Shawn doesn't earn enough to support us both. And with no health insurance I'm going to need money for doctor visits, etc.
To make matters worse it looks like I'll be getting a new boss, one whose first method of communication is ALWAYS yelling and screaming. That's the last thing I need.
For right now I'm going to keep working until I can figure out what to do. Try to keep a zen mind set and do no more than I have to to keep my job.
|Friday, July 3rd, 2009|
|Windows 7 and Evil Software Pirates (that's me)
Microsoft has really gotten their shit together. Windows 7 is unarguably the best OS they've made so far. At least for gamers such as myself. It's faster, prettier, less of a resource hog, more user friendly, more compatible, and has very few bugs. I've been able to install and play games that haven't worked since Windows 95 with little effort. During my time off from employment I've been filling up my 10T of hard drive space with games from ancient to state of the art. Over 2100 games and only 40 or so didn't work perfectly right off the bat. Only 5 of those I haven't been able to get to work yet.
Direct X 11 is pretty amazing as well. It's pretty damn near photo-realistic real-time rendering.
You know, I'm going to actually pay money for Windows 7 when it comes out. :P
|Saturday, June 6th, 2009|
|Summer Break! Who whoo!!!
The idea of months off when I was a kid sent me into major joygasms. It's kind of the opposite these days. :P Our plant is shutting down at the end of next week and I'll be getting a lot of serious R&R time. How much R&R time is up in the air, but it will be at least a month. Not sure how we're going to pay the bills but it's going to be really nice being able to sleep-in every day.
I'll probably hit the parks quite a bit. My strength has recovered quite a bit and I've really been wanting to do some serious hiking lately. I doubt I'll be up to my usual hiking distance standards but it will be nice none-the-less.
|Thursday, May 21st, 2009|
|I feeel wooozy......
Hey, who would have thought blood was a renewable resource? Sure, you have to wait in line for hours, but you can keep the internets and eat at the same time!!!!
Yeah, not exactly a high point in my life, but I get to keep my lower middle-class lifestlye.
Between me and Shawn we can pull down an extra $150 a week if we both "donate" twice a week. So we're keeping the net and we don't have to move... yet.
My gas problem seems to be fading. Hopefully it was just a temporary thing as my digestive system continues to adjust.
|Tuesday, May 12th, 2009|
|Wednesday, May 6th, 2009|
|More bad news. When it rains it monsoons.
They laid off another 15 people today. Somehow me and Shawn managed to keep our jobs. I can't believe how empty the place is.
They also announced that we're shutting the plant down for almost a month in June. This is pretty much a death blow to our finances.
They've really been pushing the pace on the lines, trying to get twice as much candy out of them with 1/10th the people. I nearly passed out at work today. Not good. My health isn't good enough to take the beating they want me to take. The place is really becoming a sweat shop.
I'm starting to get a horrible amount of gas and I'm farting and burping all day. And it doesn't smell good. To make maters worse I've always been hyper-sensitive to gas. In the past even normal amounts have put me on the floor. I've been trying out all kinds of gas/digestive relief products without luck. I'm pretty much miserable 24/7 now because of this.
Worst of all, I'm now a Windows 7 beta tester. And you can be too!http://www.microsoft.com/windows/windows-7/download.aspx
|Friday, April 24th, 2009|
|Someone must love me.
We just got another financial blow, Nathaniel's government-paid for medical insurance plan (long story) has just been axed by the federal government and we got a nice letter from them Tuesday saying that it was mandatory to have a $300 a month health insurance for him by Monday.
We were struggling with four-day work weeks. Now we get this on extremely short notice. We are now officially #@%%$%#ed
. So now we have to make some hard choices. We'll probably have to move, cut my phone, and kill the internet. There's a good chance we'll have to start selling off our stuff.
It's funny how much my life goes up and down without much input from me. It's a big galactic joke. Six months ago we were financially sound and it was looking like we'd be debt free by the end of the year. Maybe we'd by a house.
Then I get sick. I'm still not 100% and I might never be. I have to eat expensive foods now or live in horrible misery. Oh, and I can't forget the $16,000 bill from Mercy. Then Shawn's child support goes up. Then work cuts my pay. Then they cut our hours. Then they cut Shawn's pay. Now this health insurance thing. We can't even look for another job. Unemployment is almost at 14% here and it's still rising.
|Friday, April 17th, 2009|
They've had efficiency experts at the plant all week. They want to reduce the number people remaining on the lines by half within the month. Technically it's possible if you have the very best workers on all of the lines. Needless to say 90% of the plant does not qualify as "very best". Hell, half of them can't even pull their own weight. How they've been handling lay-offs has just been baffling me, we've kept some pretty crappy workers and let some pretty good ones go.
At this point I think my job has gotten a little safer. I'm the only person left in the plant trained as a line associate/line leader/machine operator/manager on most lines. I can easily fill just about any spot and be darn good at it and that's exactly what I've been doing all week. It's kinda weird being a boss one day and a grunt another, but it's been going pretty smooth. I consistently exceed quota and QC is always happy with me. Since we're all about at the same pay now it would be far more "efficient" to get rid of someone far less flexible than me.
As the weather is beautiful today I think I'll go visit the zoo!